ASC Pt. III

I haven't felt this sick in a very, very long time. I have a fever, I'm sore, I have a lot of phlegm, and to top it off, I'm really sad. I'm just so down right now, hitting lows I haven't seen in years... 5 years give or take a few days. I remember that time very vividly in spite of it being such a blur. For a good few weeks I was sleeping around 14 hours a day, eating once a day at most, and still going to school and work.

These five year intervals seem to come around like a Swiss watch.

I feel like once again, the idea of love in my life is ineffable. I feel like I"ve tried my hardest and it just doesn't seem like it will ever happen. I've tried to put it on fate or play cool and even gone over the top and it seems like I just fall flat every time.