ASC Pt. III

My updates are far too infrequent and unimportant. I really don't have much to talk about or even feel anymore. It's sad really. I was hoping that I could return to being this over-emotional human being where every single thing affected me, but I can't. I really don't think so, at least. Because I've tried and tried and the more I try, the more I realize that my life is just in this rut... I need to get out of my routine (or my rutine as Barney from How I Met You Mother would say). I know I'm only in my second week back from xMas break, but I can't wait for reading week... and possibly March for the UFC show in Ohio.

I want to feel something again. I want to just be something opposed just a University student.

It snowed last night, finally. I for one and happy that there's finally snow on the ground. Others were enjoying the heat, but I'm not a fan. I hate people who complain about the snow... it's like dude, get out of Canada and move to Bermuda if you don't want to be cold. Put on a sweater or a jacket. Me, I don't even own a jacket. I haven't worn one in years, and I still love the snow and the cold... Summer on the other, I hate because the reverse idea of taking off your clothes doesn't really work in the summer to get cool.

Hmm... is there anything I can talk about that wouldn't be boring or redundant? Actually...

"When I look in the mirror, I can't believe what I see" The Good Life by Weezer

I'm really not accustomed to my own face, my own look. I go through these periods where I grow out my hair for a year or so and then I shave it all off and I don't recognize myself when I look in the mirror... Or I might go a few weeks without shaving and then shave and not know who I am anymore. Is it the inside that counts or is it the outside? Should I stablize my external somehow? I just feel so inconsistent, and that's exactly what I need - consistency... not a rut, but a consistent something in my life in which I'm actually happy with... I don't have that. I miss it.

I'll try to write more, I just don't know if I have anything left to say.

How I Met Your Mother rules... if you can say it's Legend... wait for it... dary.