ASC Pt. III

I always get depressed around this time of year, like most people do. However, I personally believe that my sadness comes from other reasons, or perhaps additional reasons to the normal reasons. It was four years ago tomorrow that she left me... now that I'm thinking about it, it was four years ago today that I last had sex... damn...

It's so hard to fathom how long ago that was, how happy ago I was, and how far from what we were we now are.

But anyways... a new year, a new start. I haven't weighed myself yet, but I feel like I've gained a million pounds over the last few weeks between Xmas and New Year's dinners and hanging out with people and eating crap all the time... blech... So I'm starting my new diet today. I'm cutting the fat from my diet... well not completely, but most of it. I'm cutting my dinner down a great deal and I'm pretty much just going to get my fat from my breakfast in the form of margerine (or butter when I have no other option). I'm going to try to live off of bagels and coffee for breakfast, and then salads, fat-free yogurt, and fruit... I'll get some meat into their somehow, but I haven't figured it out yet.

Anyways... I wish that I could fix it up, but I don't know that I can. I can't believe it's been four years since she left me and I can't believe it'll be 10 years this year when we first started talking.

Time flies... 10 years?