ASC Pt. III

I'm not sure about this yet, but I'm thinking of ending this blogger account. I don't know why, but my writing doesn't seem to mean anything to anyone anymore, myself included. I don't know if anyone reads what I write anymore and my head doesn't seem to really think of anything important or deep or even remotely clever anymore. Maybe I just need a break? I don't know... maybe. I find myself just keeping notes to myself on facebook opposed to writing them here now... I'm really not sure. But I do suppose that when I do write something deeper and more emotional, I often post it here opposed to my facebook because there are things I dare not say on there that I only put here on this private journal...

So, I don't know... I think my life has become a bit too busy to sit around and think about stuff... Am I anywhere near happy? Not at all... not for one second. But I feel like there's this giant block in front of me that keeps me from really experiencing my life and keeps me from really feeling my emotions. There's something hovering at the surface that I just cannot tap into.

I want to feel something real, but I don't know if I can...

I guess what I'm getting at is, I'm probably not going to update this much anymore (but is always the case, I'm probably going to come up with ten things to write in here before the end of the day)... let's see how it goes.