ASC Pt. III

So I've become somewhat addicted to facebook. I don't know what it is, but it's just so much easier to search for people on there. I find it weird how I find people on there and I wonder "Oh, I haven't heard from this person in awhile. Maybe I should add them?" I usually don't because, ya know, I'm shy... so I'm here to say, if you want to add me, go ahead. But other than that, it's just kind of weird to see people you haven't heard about or thought of in years and just see a tiny picture of them and not even being able to see their profile. There are a few people I see their pictures and just have thoughts... I will not reveal names, just vague ideas of them

- A Cult member - there was this guy I was kind of relatively close friends with in high school. As close of a friend that I could get because, as I've previously stated, I'm really shy, and even more than that, I'm difficult to open up. Anyways, I see his picture now, and knowing who he was, I'm kind of reluctant to get in touch with him again. He was just such a hardcore devoted Catholic and I've always been agnostic (at best). Actually, today, I think I've found a piece of God that I can connect with in which I can say, "Yea, I do believe in God" however, I really don't have any faith in any organized religion, especially Catholicism... no offense to anyone that might. Anyhow, I just don't feel like messaging out of fear of him asking me to go on bible retreats again because I really do not have time or patience for that.

- A girl I kind of had a crush on - so there was this girl that for a little while, I remember somewhat having a crush on. It was a good few weeks that we just were talking a lot at school, sometime before graduation, and we just kind of got along. She was nothing like the kind of girl that I usually liked. One, she was Asian, and I am very rarely attracted to Asians. And two, she was kind of an optimistic person, which is quite different from myself. Also, I had actually known her from the first grade and was just getting to know her, which I found kind of odd. Something that most girls I find myself attracted to have this in common - they're always dating someone... and she was too, so there was no surprise there when I found out that she had a boyfriend. It was no big deal. I just saw her picture and it kind of all came flooding back in my mind.

- The girl I had a crush on for my entire high school life - so I saw a picture of this girl I had a crush on for pretty much all of high school... Goddamn, she still looks pretty damn pretty. I think it was just simple transference to why I liked her, transferring my feelings for "Anna" on to her because 1) She was near by, 2) She liked the Beatles and 3) She was really pretty. I'm sure if I saw her today I'd still pop a boner and jump at the chance to make out with her, but the "crush" like feelings I had are pretty much non-existent, ya know, other than the fact that she's still hot.

- A former best-friend - there's this guy I was best-friends with in fifth grade and I saw him at school a few years ago and saw his picture today and just wonder how we went from being so close to being, really, absolutely nothing to one another. I bet one day he'll see my picture and probably think the same thing about me... I wonder what he's up to. I really think he's doing good because, like me, he was kind of seen as someone who might amount to a lot back in elementary school. But look at me now, pretty much a failure at life, so maybe he is to? I don't wish it upon him because he really never did me wrong, but I just wonder if he went down the same shitty street that I did.

- The class slut - I had heard a lot about this girl being the class slut. I never experienced her first hand, but I always heard that she got around. Just saw her pic and thought about her stereotype. She's still nothing special to look at...

- The golden girl - there was this girl that a lot of people liked, this one guy particularly, and I saw her pic up there. She's just another person I wonder about if they've made something of themselves or not.

That's about all the thoughts I had with that page of Facebook. There are other people I will mention later on, I'm sure.