ASC Pt. III

In my mind, I like to see her happy... but I don't think I'd actually like to see her happy because it just makes me feel worse. I doubt she was ever very happy with me...

I want it to be over, but there's just all this lingering in me when I see certain things and hear certain words and tones...

It's been pushed away and pushed down, but I know it still exists - this feeling in me is still there. I don't know what it is. Is it love? Hope? Obsession? Jealousy? Is it her that I want? Is it what she has with him that I want? Is it just love in general that I want? Am I just reminded of what we had? Or what I think we had? Does anyone even care? Does anyone even know what this feels like? Am I the only one in the world this needy for love?

FYI, if you ever want to drive an ex jealous, send them a picture of you kissing someone else...