ASC Pt. III

Now that I've got you attention, read this entry.

I just had a sexual dream about someone... it was sadly really short, and I say sadly because I haven't had sex in a really long time and dreams are the closest thing to reality I can get because as it's happening it usually feels real, opposed to masturbating where you realize you're basically fucking yourself. To take that a step further, when I masturbate, I realize that I usually don't want to be doing it, so in actuality I guess it's like I'm raping myself... wow, there's a concept.

Anyways, I had two sexual dreams this week... the other was with Anna which was quite long and vivid and it took place in my old house. I'm not as open about sex as I'd like to be... I guess I am a little shy and shameful about it... mostly because I haven't had much though. I guess sex remains private with me... or maybe non-existent.