ASC Pt. III

I can't seem to face up to the facts
I'm tense and nervous and I can't relax
I can't sleep because my bed's on fire
Don't touch me I'm a real live wire

So I can't sleep and I'm quoting that damn talking heads song as I often do when I can't.

I have to get up in like 5 hours for an 8:30 class... and then I stay at school until 7, with a three hour break inbetween classes. The worst thing of it all is that I don't have anything worth watching on my laptop tomorrow so that sucks.

In another news, someone got stabbed at my school yesterday. Great. I saw it on a news headline during Rockstar Supernova. From the looks of the story, it happened right at my college too... great. Just great

I want this to be the year that changes everything around. I want this to be the year that I, as a human being, find somehwere I belong, as Linkin Park would say. I don't even know what I'm talking about. I just want something to feel remotely right and normal for me this year. I don't want this prolonged pain anymore. I don't want this unrealistic dreamer stirring inside me anymore. I jsut want to live. I just want something this year opposed to the nothing I've always felt.

I'm dying to live...